Archive for the ‘Rest’ Category
March 2nd, 2007 | Josie
All the things one has forgotten scream for help in dreams. ~Elias Canetti
I have found that there are weeks and weeks when I don’t dream at all, then there are nights when I have dreams that I cannot even begin to interpret.
I successfully slept for 17 hours last night, and woke up more confused than I have ever been in my life. I don’t even remember what the dream was about, I just woke up feeling the most enormous void in my life. How can I begin to fill a void when I don’t know what it is that needs to be filled?
I have always felt safe in sleep. Aside from rare nightmares, I can usually excape into emotional oblivion within the realms of dreamless sleep. Not really sure what such a dream means to the grand scheme of my life, but it does take away one of my few safe havens.
October 2nd, 2006 | Josie
“How beautiful it is to do nothing, and then to rest afterward.”~Spanish Proverb
Since arriving in Europe, my life seems to have been one giant blur. We are always going, going, going. I don’t function well like that. It really has nothing to do with stress as much as it has to do with me needing to collect my thoughts and center myself. When I was growing up everyone thought I was outgoing, and most of the time I am, but there are days when I just need to be alone, days when I don’t even want to talk to other people, or listen to them talk. I just want to turn off and simply exist, let the world turn without me for a while.